picking up the pieces

2011-03-15T01:41:00.004+08:00

Its driving me crazy when you're living under the same roof or even sleeping with the person you secretly hate. Its not that i purposely hate you. Reflect yourself ,its your attitude. If you're not a bitch or a pain in the ass ,why would i hate you? Think!

But what hurts more that even your own friend hurt your feelings. With or without they knowing ,purposely or unintentionally. I can just forget about it or forgive you in a second. But remember ,my patience for you is only for so long. It is running out. Trust me. I'm in between a thin line between being your friend and walking away. I can't be there for somebody who won't be there for me. Who hurt my feelings ,over and over again. & yes ,i may be smiling and laughing around you. Acting like everything is fine. But deep down ,i'm very disappointed with you. Very. & it will come to a point when i will start to hate you. It's just a matter of time.

Come home faster Nico. I'm very alone without you. I don't know if i can handle this bullshits alone. P.s. I miss you.

xoxo.

2011-03-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

Okay all i wanna say is I WANT MY HAIR TO GROW FAST!! PLEASEEEEEEEE! Like last time very long ,can whip back and forth. Now i'm weeping instead. hahaha lol. & yes ,i miss Nico! She went to Bali and be back on Tuesday. Faster la come back Ah Jum!! Misses.

xoxo.

2011-03-02T20:27:00.003+08:00

It's really saddening and breaks my heart when you say that you are never good enough for anybody. It really does. I mean ,to me you're the BEST for me. But if only you knew. It's too bad i don't have the guts to tell you that.

& its also sad when your own parents don't take notice of your feelings. Instead ,they only cared about other people's feelings. When i say i no ,means no. We are talking about feelings here. What's the point of me continuing contacting him if i have no feelings for him at all? What good will it brings? I will only lead him on for nothing. & then it will break his heart terribly. Better break it now or later. Lesser the heart pain. Get it? I don't understand why it is hard for you to understand and get it inside your head. I love someone else and he is forever on my mind. No matter what.

xoxo.

2011-02-27T19:07:00.002+08:00

Friends. What more can i say (:

2011-02-25T01:20:00.002+08:00

I don't know what i should do right now. Am i doing the right thing? I keep on feeling guilty. You're making me feel and everyone around feel i'm the bad guy. Fuck la i'm all confused. This is what i don't like about love. This very part right here. Fucking fuck!

2011-02-16T00:30:00.003+08:00

It's sick that all these battles ,are what keeps me satisfied.

xoxo.

2011-02-16T00:24:00.002+08:00

Sentosa with lovelies. Had a blast with them. & thanks Faiz bestie for turning up. So happy! (:

xoxo.

2011-02-14T01:44:00.002+08:00

I keep praying and never stop hoping that one day ,everything is gonna be fine. But i realised that the more i hope for the better ,the more fucked up situations going on. Or maybe just the people around me. I don't know. I find myself keeping running away ,away from all this bullshits and dramas that is happening. Or maybe i'm just running away from reality. Fuck. I'm beginning to see that because of this ,it has starting to change me. I'm not the old me anymore. Hot tempered ,reduce my social life and i tend to hate people easily. Don't make me start talking about boys! I don't even know where to start. & it seems like every guys who dates me ,end up disappointed. I've got to stop leading people on and break hearts. It's just wrong.

xoxo.

2011-02-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

Saturday Night Fever .

2011-02-07T23:21:00.003+08:00

School. Study for the upcoming phase test. ohmygawd can i handle the hands on ? Hope so. Must attend and drag my butt to school everyday for this few weeks. Exams is coming ! Must pull up my socks and underwear ! okay maybe not that.

xoxo

2011-02-02T17:02:00.007+08:00

A stick is not just a stick ,when it can make or distract you to forget the pain. Well ,atleast for a while.

It's been so long since i've last been hugged. Hug and kissed by someone who truly loves me. Til i kinda forget how it actually feels anymore. I know i've been bragging bout how i am enjoying my single life. But yes ,i've got to confess ,i kinda miss being in love. Being held by someone ,sharing basically your whole life to them. To know that somebody actually cares. Atleast knowing that i have something to look forward to in life. Friends back stab you. Friends come and go. But true love only comes once.

I can't get you out of my mind . Why ? Everytime i see your picture ,my heart just stopped. My mind when blank. I felt a short breath inside of me. Everytime i am able to distract myself from the thought of you ,there you were suddenly appear in my mind. Every fucking single time. It's frustrating. I wanna cry. But i can't cry anymore . I just can't . I've got to pull myself together. I've gotta stop the tears. I can't take it anymore . I can't take those lonely nights ,when i keep on tossing and turning in my bed. I can't take it knowing that i can't sleep at night. & when i do ,it's because i cry myself to sleep. It's tiring. I don't know if my heart can take any of this anymore. Cause everytime i see your face or just hearing your name ,it felt like a piece of sharp motherfucking object just went through my heart. & you'll never know about. NEVER. So please people i'm begging you ,don't talk about him or say his name in front of me ? It makes me wanna cry. I just can't take it anymore. & I can't do anything about it . Basically i just have to swallow those pains like how i swallow those happy pills. Happy days is going to happen. Its coming . I just have to be patience. I HAVE TO BE STRONG ('=

xoxo.

2011-01-29T23:13:00.002+08:00

Faiz bestie gave me a rose yesterday. I don't know whats the occasion ,thaipusam maybe ? LOL . But thanks anyways. Even though its destroy and the wither ,you can still laugh. Hahaha. Anyway ,whats up with people staring at me from top to bottom ? Aunties and Uncle's even. Do i know you or anything ? Stupid.

xoxo.

2011-01-26T14:20:00.002+08:00

What started out as a simple altercation ,turned into a real sticky situation.

Now i don't have nobody to look up to. Except for myself. Guess it's me ,myself and i.

2011-01-22T19:26:00.002+08:00

Yeah we had a little catching up with Aishabby . It didn't feel the same anymore . The environment is not the same . The feeling when you simply can't face THAT person but you can't do anything about it ,yknow ? Hais . Anyyyyyway ,Faiz bestie didn't follow ,cause he wanna check his letterbox . Tender la . No fun la tkde kao . hahaha ! Awrights ,its Saturday night and im home alone . Keep puffing all the way (:

xoxo .

2011-01-20T00:27:00.003+08:00

I really feel down . My hair is shorter than usual . Yes ,my hand is very itchy to go and cut it . I feel i wanna cry ,cause my hair don't feel the same . Took me a long time to grow that long . & now its gone . Fuck it ,i actually cried for my hair . Hair grow faster please . My heart can't take it knowing that i have to wait ,again ,for it to grow back . Hmmm ,plus i really don't know who to trust anymore . Like fucking seriously ,seems like everyone around me is putting a mask on and fucking putting up an act . Cause the person who i trust stab me in the back ,and its really hard to have the trust back towards that person . & it really made me hard to trust others . Even guys . Especially guys . Cause because of a guy ,my whole friendship and watever trust i had towards anyone is gone . Stupid jerk . Ape nk jadi ,jadi la . I'm seriously sick and tired of those drama mamas . If you wanna continue contacting him ,go ahead . & if you wanna go back to your best friend again ,go ahead . I'm not stopping you . Cause you are at your own risk . All i can do as a friend is just advice . The rest is up to you ,your choice . I'm so used to gfs playing with my feelings cause of guys . Seriously i don't wanna feel that kind of heart pain anymore . Easy said ,i don't want to talk about it anymore . When we meet pretty pretty pls don't talk about him anymore can ? & J ,i really regretted knowing you . Should've ignored you when you PM me when we first met . & now i had no more chance with the guy that i truly want and like . Even if i do ,it don't feel right . Its heart breaking to see that chance pass by just like that . All because of you . You're the cause of all of it . Fuck you motherfucker . I hate you .

2011-01-15T00:59:00.003+08:00

So many things happen in one shot . Friends becomes enemies . Enemies become friends . Normal friends becomes closer and closer . & bestfriends becomes more of like a normal friends . People change ,ah yes i do agree with this . Experience tons of this and what i learn is to just let it go . Even if your own friend hurt your feelings ,backstab you or whatsoever . Like it or not i tend to just forgive and forget . Maybe i won't forget ,but there's always a little voice somewhere telling me to give you chance . Because why ? Would you just watch a friendship years to build gone just like that . At the very least i know i try to make things back to normal . & yes ,i do treasure every friendship with every people i know . No use having/bearing grudges ,true ? (:

xoxo .

2011-01-04T02:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! GOODBYE 2010 !

HELLO 2011 ! ^^

Okay 2010 is over . Welcome 2011 with open arms . I won't make a new year resolutions or blablabla cause i know every year there's surely have bullshits that gonna happen . Cause you can't stop ups and downs to happen in life do you ? Anw ,countdown was alright . Celebrate at Marina with the bestest . Before that ,had a small fight with mom . What a way to start the new year . Oh well . Plus i didn't even get to drink drank drunk during countdown . Wasted . It's been 6 month since i last drink . On the good side ,good for me ayy ^^ Maybe i should stop drinking for good . we'll see(:

School starting next week . I'm still in a holiday mood . I find myself now dragging my butt to school now and then . Seems like i'm not interested in school anymore . People say ITE life is fun ,freedom and watsoever . To me ,its boring . Just plain Wasting your time . For some ,its a place to " Carik Jodoh " . Sometimes i have to agree with some people saying ,ite stands for ,Its The End . Sometimes only . Okay crap . What am i talking ? lol maybe because my eyes are half close blogging at this hour while everyone is sleeping soundly . Goodnight people .

xoxo .

2010-12-27T02:11:00.004+08:00

Have you ever feel upset ? Disappointed ? Maybe you've expect too much or have high expectections for that someone that you're realise they don't feel the same way towards you . Or maybe they've loved another instead . Until there's comes a point when i'm starting to hate the word 'expect' very much . My hopes and world came crashing down when i found out that he loves someone else ,and i'm just a motherfucking option . & he is my priority . You're the one i kept thinking bout . Even in my dreams ,i swear . Till the extend that i push away other guys cause i know my hearts emotionally taken by you . I don't even tell my bestest bout this . Cause i'm afraid .

In the game we're playing ,she has won . No doubt . & this time i lost . I lost the fight . I'm the loser here . What hurts knowing i'm just a rebound for ya . When you worth the world to me . I've never give up faith for you . But thats it . Like it or not ,i have to move on . You lost me . Only the moon stays faithful to accompany my lonely nights . I mean every single night ,it never ever fails to be there . & for me and you ,its all just a dream .

xoxo .

2010-12-21T14:13:00.003+08:00

I LOVE THEM BOTH ♥

Haro haro ! haha ,this was taken on saturday . Woke up at 6am on that day when i supposed to wake up at 5 . I need to sell baby's clothes at Tamp for lifeskills . End up i was lost and arrived at 11.30 . hahah lambat perrrrrrr ! Anws ,meet the usuals at town ,and the story goes on .

Oh yar ! Wanna know sumthing ? I've scraped my hair . lol . & i love it ! Will post the pics of my hair soon . Waiting for Faiz to upload it . hehe .

P.s. I had a irresistable crush on someone . Go figure (:

xoxo

2010-12-07T22:41:00.004+08:00

okay okay ,i know i know . Its been long since i've updated this dusty very berabuk blog of mine . & yes ! November have been a HELL of a month . Problems keep flowing in my life . A lot of things happen . Macam-macam adaaa . lol . BUT ,you know what ? Its kinda a good thing you know . It kinda shows me who really notice it . Who my true friends are . who i should or should not keep in my life . & who would notice and actually cared enough to join the hell of the ride with me and help me out . In my downest ( dunnoe if there's such word )& in my worst times . So ,if you feel that i ignored you or some sort . It basically means i DON'T fucking want you in my life . Or maybe you're not worth it . I repeat eh , NOT WORTH IT (:
Just gotta throw away those unimportant things in my life . & focus on what's next. Or maybe not focus on love for now . Maybe . hahaha .

P.s How do you feel when you can't have the person you really want in your life because of fucked up situations ,fucked up past relationship and just maybe ,because of a fucked up motherfucker ?

Well that suckszsxxz ! Happen before . Guess i have to endure this . Here we go again =/

xoxo .

2010-11-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm happy right now ,you know why ? I got a job . hehehe its at town ,the jobs not that hectic and plus its right beside Syabby's shop . We work same time ,same day some more . Woooo . BUT ! the uniform's cock up . Seriously ,to me laa . Kunik siak . hahaha Syabby and sissy say i look cute in it . I don't know if they say that just to please me . but Jerry laughed at me . Wahh kanina . haix maybe for the money i will sacrifice the way i look . Saaaaaaaap ! haha & oh yar ,me and J's back .
Okay bye !

xoxo .

2010-11-14T20:23:00.003+08:00

I'm standing alone and my life's pitch black right now .

Seriously ,i missed you . A lot . I miss every single thing bout you . Can't deny it. I know right now you have a bad impression towards me already . You may think i'm a bad person . A bitch maybe ? I'm sorry i didn't give all my love to you . I confess i'm wrong . I know i made the decision but i still wanna be with you ,after i get my life straight . Didn't you told me once that you would help me do that ? & you will always be there for me ? But you actually leave when i merely says not to rush things . I didn't say i don't wanna be with you right ? *sign* & i even give hints that i still wanna us to be friends . I still want you in my life ,but i don't understand why you keep saying that i forget bout you . I don't baby . Never . I told you and you know that i have a lot of things in my mind and things been hard for me right ? I need to solve those problems . & i can't believe you literally leave me ):

If you really love that person ,let them go . If they come back ,they're yours forever . If they didn't ,then it's not meant to be .

xoxo .

2010-11-14T14:30:00.004+08:00

FRIDAY NIGHT !

The Kaki Gereks :>

This was taken on Friday . Went to town with the usuals . More picas at FB (:
Anw ,gave school a missed on that day . Ngantok + penat = MALAS . Hahah the day b4 i slept at 4am ,and i was supposed to wake up at 5am . Tido skejap pon jadi la ,mati2 pikir bole bngun . Hahah at last bngun kul 1pm . Baek perr ,hahah .

Syabby gave me a call and meet her at 5plus at phoenix . Went to town together and went straight to cinileisure . Waited for the rest to come and just chill around . Accompanied Haikel to buy his watch . First he thought of buying G-watch ,but ended up buying Adidas . Slack around Taka and then back to cinileisure :>

P.s. I hope there's no grudges between us . Wateva it is i hope we're still friends . No bad feelings or what . I mean well . Maybe its for the best :')

xoxo .

2010-11-10T17:04:00.002+08:00

NOVEMBER SUCKS ! A LOT !

Okay i may be smiling and all ,but deep inside i'm truly crushed ,shot or punched wateva they call it . I can't take it anymore . I've been feeling depressed every fucking day . I can't remember when's the last time i'm truly happy . Or at least a bit happy . My god ,feels like my life is all cloudy and no sunshine . When i found the source of happiness ,it definitely won't last . Problem after problems keep coming up ,and it seems to be harder every time . Yeah ,gf was there to lighten my problems a bit . But at the end of the day ,i'm the one who has to solve those problems . I'm the one who carries the burdens . & i'm the one who is responsible for every thing i do . Seems like everything/anything i do is wrong nowadays . Keep making mistakes . There's no one i can turn to . & i have to face the music myself . Gosh ,i'm very down right now . Is there a light somewhere ? Cause i need it badly .

xoxo .

2010-11-07T15:09:00.003+08:00

Went Fish&Co at park mall ysterday to celebrate Saiful's bdae . Hahah at the end after we finish eating there's a little surprise . The crew brought cake and sings a bdae song for him . Best kan ! Kalau la bdae aku g2 . hahaha ! But before that head down to town cause aisha wanna buy his bdae present . River island siol . haha .

After that went to saiful's reunion party or sumthing . More like kenduri orng mati . Pokeywak boring nk mampos ! Ade minum ,ade pizza sume depan mate tapi tkde orng sentuh . Mcm legong sia satu2 . Harap je rumah private . Tapi otak mati ,tskk ! tau stay town aje . & yes ,yesterday was a suay day for me .aku kene saman lagi . babi pey butch suck my pussy ! buduh . November byk bende sial jadi ,my friends one by one break up with their bf/gf . fuckitfuckitfuckit .
But its a lucky day for aisha . she found an iphone . Niceee ! Wents my turn to own one ? hehe .

xoxo .

2010-11-06T01:55:00.005+08:00

So the truths out ! i knew it ,HAHA . Info ketat geng . But still i wonder why i'm not surprised ? Kinda expecting it to happen . But one thing i like about myself is ,i don't cry for any motherfucking bastards . I may be hurt a little ,but come on . Life's too short to dwell on a little boy . True ? I've got big boys to entertain and waiting for me . Wooooooooooooots ! Atleast nobody's stopping me from doing wateva i want .
Ohh well ,me don't like guys who ain't JUMBO anw . If you know what i mean .*winks*

xoxo .

2010-11-03T22:08:00.004+08:00

I GIVE UP . Like seriously ,can't believe i actually say this . Where were you when i fell and needed help up ? & that's right i don't wanna see you no more . Everyday same old thing . Hmm ape nk jadi ,jadi laa . DA TAK KESAH LAGI .

xoxo .

2010-11-02T19:16:00.003+08:00

Those were taken last Friday . School starts at 2 just now . Thought of not gg to school cause the lesson lasted for 1hour plus only . But ended up gg cause bby wanna go home with me . Sayang peyy pasal aku pegyyyy (:

Anw ,just finish talking with Jerry on the phone . Baby i don't get it why you are upset with me . I don't know what i did wrong . If you don't like my attitude or what ,i'm sorry . Its just that i'm so used to it like this . It feels like whateva i do is not good enough for you .I'm sorry if i keep on making you upset . Truth is ,it is heart-breaking for me to see you sad .
I'll try to change my ways for you baby . It's a promise .

xoxo .

2010-10-31T20:55:00.004+08:00

Went swimming with brother ,sis-in-law and Adam (: Thought of not following them ,but i just go ahead cause i know i'm gonna be freaking bored at home . Reuben sends us there . Thanks eh Hamster . HAHA ! & yes ,my skin is tanned now . I dunnoe if people see the difference ,but i do . lol .

Anw ,yesterday went shopping with mummy and Nico . I love the things i bought . Ohhhh thanks lots mummy . Me likey ! Hahaa but still i don't feel i shopped enough . Cause mummy have to go off first to attend something . Nehmind ,just don't forget the shoes ,i still want it . hehs . Friday ? Standard ,town with the usuals =P

Hmm ,i dunnoe what i'm feeling right now . A part of me tell me to just give it up cause it feels different . Its not the same anymore ,seriously . Isit really worth it ? But another part of me told me to stay and try to make it work .
oh ,i hate this part right here =/

xoxo .

2010-10-28T19:21:00.003+08:00

Okay now i'm feeling restless . Feeling worried cause bby didn't reply or answer my text/call . You know the kind of feeling when you're start to imagining things ? The kind of feeling when you think something's not right ,but at the other hand hope it's wrong . Hate this feeling man . Or maybe i'm just being ridiculous . Maybe he's just sleeping & is in his lala land yknow . I know his tired and all . So i hope he holla at me if he's awake .

But truthfully ,you know what ? I'm kinda expecting or not surprised IF you decides to leave . Kinda used to it . I know i'm boring to ya . Give you the cold shoulders at times & you don't like it . Well ,i still do have doubts about you . EVERY mothafucker guys i know in my past thought me something . Never trust anybody fully . Even you told me that ,true ?

I confess i'm like them too ,before i know you . Yeah i break hearts and can't deny i used to be a player too . Nothing to be proud of . I know i never told you all this . But i don't want you to know bby . To know about my bitchy old me . I'm afraid if i tell ,you would have a different impression of me . So let's just keep it a secret ,for now .

Arrgghh ,fuck this feelingxszsxzxs man .

xoxo .

2010-10-27T11:35:00.003+08:00

Didn't went to school today . Been very sick lately . Fever ,flu ,cough stomach cramps . Friends says its due to Haze ? Think so too . & i swear yesterday i was shivering otw home . Padahal Yanaa kepanasan eh ? haha reached home and all the aching started to act up again . Went in and out of the toilets a couple of times . Perut aku all the way pat skola cramp jee . Kembung da mcm orng preggy . No SEHH ! hahahah . When mommy reached home she was so scared seeing me in bed all covered up . Badan aku panas rabak ,dats y i give school a missed today . & Jerry have to go school himself . kesian nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

Oh btw ,watched PranormalActivity2 with bby . Mak oi tak seram jerr -_____- Orng terpekik pat cinema uh uat kekek . hhahaha bby je byk terkejot ,i chill (:

P.s. You might not see it ,but i'm loving you more day by day . & i'm sure all my friends will be SHOCKED to hear me say this ,you're all that matters now to me . Cause trust me ,i never actually say this to any guy before . Except you . Don't dissapoint me .

xoxo .

2010-10-24T02:24:00.005+08:00

Those were photos taken on Friday . More on fb . So went home straight after school with Jerry :> Got changed and all then meet Syabby and Ziela at Phoenix . Thought i was late ,but then i was super early . lol . Went to cinieleisure straight cause i wanna buy something . Hehes kite tige da jiwe skg . Hahahaha ! slack around Scape for a while . Waited for Faiz and aisha to come down . & then there's a fight . Chi and malay . A small one . Mepek pe -_______-

Around 9 fetch Susie from work . Slack around cinieleisure den Mok ,semut and An came . Lame2 cinie mendak pulak tros we chill at Taka . & the Haze rabak or what ? Pat Taka da mcm pagi2 siol . lol .

Just now plan was to go Grandma house ,cause got something on . But then decided to meet Jerry <33 Sayang kao (:

xoxo .

2010-10-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

I know it's been long i've not updated . Sorry . Busy with school . & right now ,life kinda sucks but at the same time something/someone made it better . So its a win-win situation . & yes ,i cant't deny that i started falling for you . Slowly ,day by day i will show my feelings towards you . I know you don't feel it now ,but i do . I can't just tell you straight right ? Awkward much . haha ! I'm backing off a little cause i dun wanna hope much . Just take one step at a time :>
Oh btw ,ya'll don't need to know who it is right now . hahahaha !
Only time will tell .

xoxo .

2010-10-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

Okay school's the same . Except that the teacher has changed . Even my lifeskills teacher . Macam kerek je tuh cikgu . lol . Anw ,didn't went PM1 just now . Cause why ? before the lesson starts ,there's 3HOURS break . What am i supposed to do that freaking long ? My friends all gone home . So join skaki lerr . hehes . Accompanied Faiz do his hair at Gombak . Cb so long sia waited for him . The day before i waited for him for like 1 hour ! Pasal ape ? Pasal kucing . Kejar kucing larr . Mandikan kucing laa . Wtfcuk ! Sumpah next time kalau aku kene tgu kao lame2 lagy aku tros jalan . Jangan harap aku nk jumpe kao lagy . Muahahaha !

Currently just fb-ing plus blogging . It's 1.22am right now and i can't sleep . Don't know why this few days is very hard for me to just freaking sleep . Nanti eyebag makin rabak oiii ! Cb i dun want i dun want ! Tomorrow school starts at 9 . Fuck ,aku bole bangun ke tidak . I'll try :>

P.s. Kao tak kenal aku sangat ,stakat kenal gitu2 je ,tkmo sembarang bobal pasal aku k ? i just don't understand why this people keep talking shitzxzszx bout me . You say i'm arrogant ? Eh hello muke aku da mcm gitu nk uat ape kan . I can be friendly if you are friendly too . Case closed .

xoxo .

2010-10-10T03:09:00.003+08:00

This was taken on Friday . Went scape/cinieleisure again with Faiz ,syabby and Lyndra . & as usual i saw the faces that i will normally see -___________-
Oh & yes ,not to forget . Ate Bestfriesforever again . But this time ,Faiz's treats ^^ Then lyndra kene gerak siang . Faiz accompanied her home . Me and syabby tros pegy clarke quay ,ape lagy . Chill2 jap den take bus home . & yknow what ? When i reached home ,momma bising2 cause pasal ape tak ? Ade 'bende' ikot aku alek . Paham2 ape laa . Da la around dat time kul 12 lebihh . Like omg 0.0

Haha anw ,school reopens next Monday . Great -_______- & oh yar ,got my results already . My GPA is 2.5 . Natasha says its good enuf . hahaha if like dat den i'm happy leii . Alhamdullilah (:

xoxo .

2010-10-06T01:26:00.003+08:00

Webcam-ing with sissy before gg out . Before that ,went lot 1 to take my skirt . Walked home cause i suddenly felt like it . lol . Waited for Reuben and adek to reach our crib and around 7.30 we went to lau pa sat . Fuhh like finally i get to eat ,because before that i have not eaten . Reached there ,we ordered our food and Adek's bf came . Dapat discount . hehehs . & i enjoyed the satay and ayam percitt so much . Nice to the max . hahah by the time my mee goreng smpai da kenyang . tak abes -______-

After dat ,went to waterfront and slack over that . Gerek la jgak . Adek's bf ,Azri klakar giler sia . kasi teka-teki mepek2 . hahahaha . Around 12 gerak from there and Reuben sends us home ,while adek and azri went johor (:

P.s. Thanks adek for the ciggies . I like ^_^

xoxo .

2010-10-05T00:38:00.002+08:00

That was the leftover photos from Naddy's open house . So just now Faiz and Syabby woke me up . Dorng ajak lepak . Alamak kacao aku tido je laaaaa . haha ! Go took my shower ,get ready and tros jumpe dorng at lot . Pikir aku lmbt ,skali dorng due lagy lambat . Pegy beli ananas pasal aku lapar giler then jumpe Nad , Sabrina sume . Makan kat bwh blk pon jadi la . Da kebuloh . HAHA ! tu pon tak abes . Faiz nan Nad yg abes kan . Wat the hell . haha ! Meet Nana aftr dat ,and aku rinduu die gilerrr ! Jumpe tros peluk die tanak lepas . hahahaa! da setahun g2 tak npk die . Den lepak2 and kekek sia Syab baru blaja pakai IPTT pat iphone . Picit2 pon tak pass . Da dapat tekan lepas kan plak . BACIN sia kawan aku ni . lol .

Tmrw gonna take my skirt at cck then mitting sis and bf . Skg nie tgah lapar . Makan ananas je tak kenyang . Mummy masak prawns ,tapi gue takle makan seafood . sediiiih nye . hehs .

xoxo .

2010-10-03T18:34:00.005+08:00

* Looks up * FRIES + MACHO CHEESE = STIM

Yesterday went to Naddy's open hse . It was a last minute thing . Faiz call me up ,saying he wanna go with me . At that point of time i was bored and no plans . So i just go ahead . Didn't eat much over there ,cause i've eaten at home already . stupid right ? lol . Anw ,ziela hola me up and meet me at teck whye . She didn't go werk . After all that ,WALKED to lot 1 from teck whye and its been a long time that i've walked that far . Penat siaaaaaaaa ! Passed by there and we remembered all the memories we had during the days . Well ,teck whye is the place we grew up . LOL . After dat ,went to town and did our manicure ! i like i like ! hehes . At first we lepak2 at triple one but after dat decide to proceed cinieleisure to eat "BestFriesForever" . Woooooo ,setim siol makan . hahahaa . Then slack around scape and SUMPAH BANYAK ORANG KEKEK ! Wannabes . Ewwwww ! Terserempak Hadi sume than lepak at cinieleisure pulak . Saw aden and all so we go ahead slack with them . Den around 11 plus baru kite prasan tibe2 cinieleisure byk bangla . HAHA ! kekek siol . Took cab home pasal malas nk naek bus . Lagypon by the time aku gerak bus pon dabes . Besok maybe pegy karaoke with susie and syabby sume . Aku rindu syabby pls . hahah !

P.s. I still love you >:

xoxo .

2010-10-01T23:37:00.006+08:00

Cool huh the specs Faiz wearing ? haha kene uh tuh ngan die .
So theres the picas on Tuesday . More on fb . Just now went to lot 1 with Nico . Shopping with her stuffs is just tiring . Cause she is slow in finding stuff . hahahah ! went home den momma texted me to go lot 1 again . Meet her and have dinner too . Go pasar malam and goshh the mat2 sane so gataaal
-________-

But theres this one guy ,attract my eyes . Kinda cute . Hehes :>
Won't let you get away ,IF WE EVER MEET AGAIN . hahaha okay crap . Besok aku nk kuar . Nico jommm ! :>

xoxo .

2010-09-30T23:15:00.004+08:00

See my eyes ? I really need to tuck in bed earlier soon . Or else my eyes will be like panda eyes . *touch wood* Need my beauty sleep asap ! haha !

Okay Tuesday went to celebrate bestie Faiz birthday . & it was a blast ! Hope kau enjoy it byk2 jgak la eh . Went grandlink first with syabby and Nico . Then later ziela come and join us . Sumpah kite kat dlm da mcm club . Suke uhh ziela . Haha ! After dat went to town cause dearest Ziela wanna meet Mok so badly .
Slack around and syabby ,jangan risau aku takkan layan Riz . Sesungguhnye die sungguh not my type . I know what type of guy he is by just one look . lol . Will upload the pics during that day soon . Waiting for Faiz and Nico to upload the photos ^_^

xoxo .

2010-09-27T00:59:00.002+08:00

Didn't go out today . Malas wanna jalan raye ke ape . No mood ,this cough is getting on my nerve . Irritating .

Oh i dunnoe why im starting to miss you . I thought i long forgotten bout you . Guess not =/ I kept remembering those memories when i was dating you . Even though we're never were an item ,i miss you more than anything . I regretted the mistake i've done . Shouldn't have treated you that way . But if you know my reasons ,i'm sure you wouldn't leave just like that . But it seems that its easy for you to move on . You might not see it ,but its hard to move on when its you who im thinking about . Every freaking day . Its even harder to date other guys ,because i'll end up hurting them . Cause its you who is on my mind . Constantly . A part of me tells me to wait no matter what ,who knows he will come back ? Theres still hope if you put your mind into it . But what if its the opposite ? Issin't it a waste of time ? If only you knew how much i love you and miss you . Hais ,if only .

xoxo .

2010-09-25T19:22:00.005+08:00

Today saturday ,and im at home . But not exactly rotting . Its just i prefer to stay at home for today . Holiday another 2 weeks . Jadi aku boley kuar hari2 sesuke hati aku . So nary rest pat rumah aje . hehs . Webcaming with yanah just now ,hahaha kekek sia . lol . Out with Fid yesterday . Went bowling at east Coast and i won . Woooooo ! But then i kinda got the feeling that he purposely let me won . Idk laa ,maybe NOT . hahaha . So Fid must blanje me ice cream ,and he did . I like . hehs ^_^

Later on sissy and brother's frends cuming my cribby to raye . Confirm ribot . lols . Will do a proper update next time .

xoxo .

2010-09-24T00:34:00.003+08:00

Bestie Faiz <:

Okay seriously i dun noe whats wrong with my body . I think theres something wrong with my stomach . Been having this terrible headache . Coughing like fuck . Keep feeling like vomitting . & currently my stomach hurts like hell ! I can't even sit properly . & hell no i'm not pregnant . Don't even think about it . I gotta go checkups soon . But yknow ,im kinda scared of the doctor . Oh my ,tummy whats wrong with you ? >:

xoxo .

2010-09-22T23:10:00.003+08:00

My eyebags are getting worst >:

Woooooo ! i am so happy today . You know why ? i just bought a new acer notebook . yeayy ! thanks mummy ! i love it . i love it <: Today i was supposed to meet fid and go to his frend open house together but i woke up late . Texted him when i woke up . But ended up falling asleep again. Cause its raining and the weather is damn nice to be sleeping . So sorryyyyyy Fid cause i paitaw or wateva . Tak sengaje dehh . So i was woken up by Faiz text msg and missed calls . Accompany him instead to lot 1 . Plan to watch movie with his cous ,but cancelled . Lepak near lot instead . Around 7 plus waited for mummy . & i bought my notebook . Weeee ! Saturday maybe meeting Ziela and Syabby . I dun wanna go jalan raye anymore . I dun want to witness what happen last sunday again. Okay now waiting for that jubo faiz to online . Gy kedai ke keje kat kedai nie . Punye la lembab . haha .

xoxo .

2010-09-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

Finally ,my exams are OVER !! wooooo ,i can go hari raya or enjoy without burdens or thinking bout school or test or exams anymore . Will go back school on October next sememster . But for now i would just think bout enjoying myself at home and prolly i would wanna work . Maybe for the money ,and next because its kinda boring when all your friends is working . & you're not . But one thing i hate is looking for a job . It sucks cause they either looking for chinese or chinese speaking idiots . wtfuck . This country should change it to english speaking people . Almost everyone can speak english . So why the fuck would they wanna ask us to be able to speak chinese ? You think China isit ? fuck you . Anw ,currently i'm down with cough and flu . Just recovered from fever . & omg this cough is killing me ,til my chest hurts . I think it's because of the weather . At one time it will be raining and its damn cold . Than the other point of time it will be humid and damn hot like it's summer again . My body can't take it . lol . Enough crap . Yesterday went shopping with sissy at town . Bought for sissy Nisa bdae present at topshop too . Hope she like it . If not ,i will wear it . huhu . Bsok jalan raye with family at wdlands . Haha i bet there will be loads of food . Goshh i don't wanna gain weight . It's hard just to lose a few pounds yknow . It takes hard work . Tomorrow MUST resist temptations .

Btw ,im not gonna update an essay bout you eh Fid Blane . Hahah nak step magician yg kemot & lokek ! =P

xoxo .

2010-09-13T23:28:00.007+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya people !

hehes okay firstly ,dewii nk mintak ampun mintak maaf kepade sesiape yg dewii uat salah . Prangai mcm sial ke . Sengaje atau tak sengaje . Dewii cume manusia biase ,tak lari dari kesalahan ataupun dosa (:

So i spent the first three days of syawal out to sedare-mare house . But this year raye is not the same . There's still conflict going on . But wtheck . I dun care anymore bout it . I wanna be happy this syawal . I know i have been very sour during ramadhan ,but guess im back to being happy ^_^

So went to school today . Had my Networking tech module exam . Started at 3 so i dilly dally siap and meet yanaa at tamp first . MCQ pey susah aku tak confident bole pass . But Structured answer die aku confident bleh pass . lol . So overall ,i think i did so-so for the paper . Tapi cam takot fail . Tskk . Next paper is on Wednesday . After that holiday smpai october . Got my new schedule for next semester . Everyday start at 8 !! Tak agak2 sia cikgu . Wahliaao .
P.s ,More Raye photos at my fb okay (:

xoxo .

2010-09-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

I'm sick and tired of people who thinks that they know me . It's like they THINK they known me for years but the fact is they don't know a shit about me . These people are bullshit to me . You don't know what's been going on in my life . The ups and downs . The struggle i've been through ,just to keep my life going . I've been on my own since i was little ,i must say that i was very independent on my own . Mommy wasn't there . Daddy too . You got your career ,and i understand that . & til now i keep on coming back to an empty home . But i still pulled through . Last time i thought that friends were everything . Time happy sume ade . But as time goes by ,i realised friends aren't my everything . They come and go . They PRETENDED to care but actually they don't give a damn . Cause they have their own lifes to think about . Why would they worry bout yours ? true ? Just now when i onlined ,there's this one person that irritate me much . I was in a bad mood ,and you are just making me angrier . Idk why out of the blue you say 'you and your boys ' . Wtheck laa . When i deny it ,you say i'm irritating ? Pleaseee la . fyi ,i'm not contacting anyone . Not even one . Jangan pandai2 ckap pls . You're the irritating one . Pfffttss ,i'm soo not in the mood >: Such a sourly post . lol .

I ain't got no days ,

Just lonely nights .

2010-09-05T19:22:00.005+08:00

Okay went iftar with my schoolmates on friday . Saw that cake on the pic ? Ugly right ,i know . But atleast the thought that counts right ? Me and Natasha make it for the September babies in my class . Sweet kan kite . Hahahah ! So today everybody was out and left me and Adam only at home . His mommy and daddy is working . Momma and ayah out with sissy to geylang . So i have to take care of Adam alone . Lucky he is not cranky today . haha ,so now parents just reached home and having their break fast while me playing with lappy . Not hungry ,tadi da makan . Oooops 0.0 hahahahah ! Beh dari tadi asek makan medicines je . Wahh sian hor !

xoxo .

2010-09-04T19:56:00.002+08:00

I just reach home from lot 1 . Accompany this bestie of mine to cut his hair . Change of hairstyle . & his face look wayy different . Da cam abng2 sachok ! hahaha dulu plak rambot cam abng2 cool . Okay wateva . Went to the doctor early morning just now at gombak . Cause of my so called 'sickness' . sobsob >; & this thing have been gg on for almost a year already . & i did nothing . hahaha . Okay at first mommy wanna left me alone cause she wanna go buy something ,but i force her to accompany me . Hehs ,truth is i'm scared gg to the doctor . I hate it . lol . & my guess was right ,i have to be injected . Naseb aku strong ,kalau tak da terpekik kat dalam . hahahah . I have to eat A LOT of pills and til now i didn't eat even one . hehs ,mommy gonna kill me if she knows . Can i NOT eat those pills ? Menyeksa >:

xoxo .

2010-09-03T13:31:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicated only to some people . That some people that i have hurt ,terribly . Some i even hurt them over and over again . You may be calling me a fcuking bitch right now ,because of the way i treated you . I know that you people hurt real bad . Why would i be dissing the people who love me dearly ? I used to have a fucked up life . & yes ,i confess i'm a sinner . If you know my past you'll definitely think twice of having me around . One minute i would treat a persons feeling well and everything was cloud nine ,but another minute i would completely ignore you . Call me a whore or wateva ,but i'm really sorry to you people . Truly sorry . I Know karma will hit me bad ,but it doesn't stop me last time . I can't be like this forever . & i'm trying to change ,slowly but surely . But some people just don't get it . I can't change overnight just like that . You people just don't get it huh ? You think i'm the same old me and never give me a chance to be a better me . Instead you keep on repeating and telling i'll never change . & other people tend to judge me by my past or by other people's mouth . Come on ,my past is in the past . I made a lot of unforgettable mistakes and i'm very remorseful by it but you are being very unfair to me right now . You know what ,i'm struggling here . Day by day ,it's getting harder and harder . You people keep on discriminate and hating me . But i'll continue trying . Trying and trying .

It hurts, but I never show this pain youll never know
If only you could see just how lonely and how cold
And frostbit Ive become, my backs against the wall
When push come to shove, I just stand up and scream Fuck em all .

xoxo .

2010-09-02T17:23:00.003+08:00

I don't know why now i don't have the mood to go out with anybody right now . A lot of people been asking me out but i just don't wanna be out with anyone . I prefer to be alone right now . Maybe i miss having the time for myself . Or maybe i don't trust anybody no more . I've starting to see that this world is full of lies and i can't stand seeing or hearing it . Especially from the one who i thought was dear to me . Now everybody's fucked up . The world's fucked up . & maybe i wanna/should be running away from this evil and harsh world for a while . Until i'm ready to face the world and come back to face reality again .

xoxo .

2010-08-31T23:01:00.002+08:00

2nd post of the day . Hehs .
Went lot 1 just now With sis-in-law and Adam cause we wanna buy KFC for break fast . After dat i was bored at home so i just play with the lappy almost the whole day . lol .
& so ,i miss my friends . I miss my old friends . I miss having a GOOD friend to be precise . Someone i can talk to when i have probs ,or maybe just to hear what i wanna let out . & sadly ,none of my friends were there for me . That's right . None . Perhaps they are busy with work and school ,so i can't be selfish and only think of myself . So i let them do their own stuff and maybe i just have to keep things to myself . Better that way . P.s Faiz texted me just now just to say that it's 10 more days to Hari Raya . Countdown per nie bdak . Hahaha whoa less than a week than it's Hari Raya . Time really flies so fast . So people ,da prepare blum for raya ? Hehe suddenly i feel excited . Hahaa !
xoxo .

2010-08-31T12:37:00.003+08:00

Just woke up and hell yeahh today there is no school . Teacher's day eve ,so the whole lesson was cancelled . Wooooooo ! But the shitty thing is tmrw i have to come to school . Got SAM revision . Wthell ,everyone's at home and i have to come ? FAT HOPE . lol . But i dunnoe if imma attend or not . School so far ,and i have to travel just for that bloody module for what ? hahaha see how . If watie not gg ,high chances i'm not gg too . Hehs . No plans today i think . Thought of rebonding my hair but sissy is schooling . She have to go to ite CCK to do a booth or something . So next time je laa . Anybody have plans out there ? Cause im gonna be freaking home alone and there's no food . Gossh . Somebody save me from boredom pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! :D

xoxo .

2010-08-30T18:07:00.003+08:00

Just reach home from school . Had a hard time waking up just now . No more akid to wake me up . lols . So its back to using my alarm clock . Which kinda had a hard time to wake me up . Hahaha ! So i was late just now ,as i thought so . Yanaa waited for me for like half an hour at interchange . Hehs soo sorry uhhs babe . Tgu bus sempat smoke2 skejap . & yes ,i'm not fasting today people . Menses . Paham2 laa . lol . Check2 yanaa pon tak . Go co-op buy my hello panda and keropok and aloe vera juice . Beh orang tgok2 ,confirm dlm hati ckap ," Tak puase nye orng " CONFIRM . HAHAH . Aluhh ,ape kurang nyer dorng . Atleast aku makan senyap2 tau . Laki isap rkk ,minum air pat skolah ape cite ? Uzur ? hahahahah . Okay so i actually forgotten my prac phase test starts at 12 . So me and yanaa can dilly dally walk here and there . Da pukol 1 baru ingat ,camne tuh ? hahahaa terpakse pegy kul 2 nyerr . Tskkk . Test sumpah aku tak tau satu benda tadi . Aku da cam blur cock pandang tuh computer screen . Atlast cikgu nampak aku cam khayal2 beh tros die tolong sikit2 . hehs . Aku confident dpt full marks . Yelaa ,pcl copy . Hehs . Den now waiting for break fast . lol . Tak puase da mcm orng puase . Perut berbunyi oii . Tahan makan pasal respect orng puase kate kan . hahah ,today mum cook ayam masak kicap . I think ? Yummmm (:

2010-08-29T14:04:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK !
Haha ,i guess i will be using blogger again . Don't ask why but i just feel like it . & yeah i will still be using tumblr . So yeah its the fasting month ,& finishing soon already . Haha . But i'm not excited about Raya dat much this year . Don't know why . Mood raye pls come . lol . Btw ,i'm not with so called 'Baby' in the previous post anymore . Long story . Don't ask . Don't wanna remember . All i can say is that i regret for having that relationship . Alot . I was never happy with him . & that made me think that i made the wrong desicion . Well pushing that aside ,will be unprivating this blog pretty soon . So those people can stalk me bloggy . haha !
xoxo (:

2010-03-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

Not using this blogger anymore . Ask me personally if you wanna know my new blog .
xoxo (:

2010-03-26T12:28:00.000+08:00

Those photos were taken on 20 march . Didn't when to work on that day ,just to go out with love. See baby ,i sacrifice my money just for you (: Thought of gg to work the next day ,so went home earlier than usual . But end up ,i get a beating from momma . Best . Da bagos tuh aku balek . Lol. & yeahh ,woke up late for work the next day . As expected . So two days no pay . Fabulous . But wtheckk ,i lazy wanna work also . Hehehe .

Plans for today ? Maybe gg out to celebrate zee's bdae . Ziela wanna tagg along ,but some people just dun want her to follow . Dun understand why . Wateva laa ,one day we lepak near your house okay ? Lagy2 her house near baby's house . Besst . lol .

P.s. To that someone ,if you love that person so much ,you should fight for her love no matter what ,right ? Its to your own good advantage too . So why are you giving up so soon ?
xoxo .

2010-03-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

Thought it was a dream when i closed my eyes .

But ohh yess ,it's so ,so true . & now im smiling ,even when im sleeping .

I won't ever let anything get in our way ,trust me .

Its funny when it was just a fling before ,and now you're the one ♥

xoxo .

I love him ,and that's the beginning of everything .

2010-03-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

Those were leftover's photos during Breakout .

Anw ,accompany Fatin to interview work at bugis and town . & yess ,i have fun with her even though we was soo tired from walking around . Sampai melecet eh ,Fatin ? Hahaha . Talked about somee people who talk behind our back ,just because of small things . Wtheckk ,malas nak layan . Pfftts ~

Around 7 plus ,meet Aishaa at clementi to watch her bf play soccer . Tot i was the one who was late ,but end up that syabby babat was the one who wass veryyy late . Blame it on the bus driver uh Syabb ? Tskktskk . Hahaa . After Aisha get to see her bf ,took taxi home . Otw home ,saw my hometown frends :D Slack with them for a while only ,cause im having this terribleterrible headache . Head spinning ,lols . Plus im having flu too . *sniffsniff * Ohh gosshh ,i think im falling sickk . & my ciggs almost finish . Ohh nooooo !

xoxo .

Cause experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes .

2010-03-14T01:34:00.000+08:00

Im back ! (:

Hahaa ,people been asking me and bugging me to update this veryvery dusty blog of mine . So here i am . Things happen lately and i won't tell ever single detail of it . Well ,went watch 'BREAK OUT' at esplanade with the NCT classes on friday and it was awesome . Coolshit i tell you . Taq sia-sia aku datang . Nyett . After break out went to eat at arab street ,and i swear the mamak gatal laa seyy . lols . Well ,basically friday was the first and last outing ,for me , that we're gonna have as a class as we gonna separate when April starts . Boohoo . & that means new classmates again . Hahaa .& ohh yar ,last friday was the last day of school for us . 1 month hols mann ,dat means i have to start workk . Its good though cause im running out of cash right now .

& i wanna work and keep myself busy again ,soooo busy till i won't be worried about small things or anything . Or even doing stupid things . Learn my lesson that night and i won't elaborate what happen cause its too upseting . All i have to say is not to trust some of your friends . Cause they are such an asshole . Oopps ! & of course thanks to those who were alwayys there for me . Thats what friends are really for ,right ? (:

xoxo .

2010-02-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

Been fcuked up lately cause of the pressure . What would you do if the guy you used to love asked you back ? Diedie they want you back in their life ,saying they regretted what they've done . Like wtheckk ,i've lonngg forgiven you ,its been a long time already ,surely i have no grudges with you anymore but i'll surely not forget . I remember ,when my frends asked me ,why he contacted me and all when he can get better . Wtheck . So i thought to myself ,guess you don't go for looks huh ? Guess not . I was ready to be more than frends ,but you blew it .

You just disappear and left me hanging ,fcuker . So be it .

Cause i know ,what goes around comes around . True ? & now you want me back ,cause love have been harsh for ya ? Den you started telling me that you regretted and realise that i was waayy better than them girls ? Its too late . I know they're much prettier than me ,no doubt ,but is their heart pretty too ? Think .

Well ,guess what ? You're the reason i've been single all this years .Why ? cause i've never been able to forget you . Dammn . Now its your turn ,i don't believe in revenge but mesti mau ingat ,ade pegy ade balek (: That's when i realise ,why love that someone when i know im nothing to him ? So its better for me to move on ,cause i know there's someone who can treat me better . Must think positive ! (:

xoxo .

2010-02-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday

Saturday

My knee's fcuking hurt just now . & its all that stupid bus driver's fault ! The bus driver suddenly break ,and i almost fall down . Almost eyy ! lol . Anw ,when i was almost flung to the side ,i saw my knee twist and i hear and feel a CRACK ! Oouuchh . I swear i can't stand and walk properly just now . Jalan da cam nenek tue ,& i must go home alone sumore . Sad kapeee . Haha !

Anw ,last Saturday ,woke up really late around 5 plus,to find out that nobody's home . Wash up and decided to go to the salon to get my hair done ,as i was bored =.= Call Faiz up and he accompanied me with Nana . End up Faiz went home first and out of nowhere Alvina suddenly came . She going to Dxo and asked us to come along . Agreed and went home to change . Meet them at Mac den Nana feels like not going . So we didn't go atlast . Waste my time changing siaa . After dat ,we went Jurong to go Shahrin's crib to meet Hani all . Ton with them and ofcourse drink and stuff . Kekek siaa dorng . Kude kepang eyy Naz ? Haha ! Took cab and slack at RC jap with Nana till 8 plus ,Nana thanks for the advices you give me . I will always take note of it okay . Love the chat with youuu . Haha ,then home swit home (:

xoxo .

2010-02-20T17:20:00.000+08:00

Those photos were taken yesterday . After school went straight to Faiz's crib since its a long time i see kidney (: See videos with him and he never fails to make me laugh . Cheer me up when i have probs . I guess thats what frends are for ,huh ? (: Bila2 jumpe lagy okay gay ? Haahaaks !

After dat ,went home to change and all as im meeting bbygies at haji lane . I swear by the time i reach home ,i was darn tired . But i still go out anw . Haha . Otw dere ,met Ayumiee coincidentally . Took the train with her but she alighted at buona vista . Jumpee sape jee eyyyy ? xD Haha anw ,i was late ,as i thought . Sorryyyy loorrrr . Did menicure and pedicure there too and had loads of fun with bbygies . You pple rocks =P Meet again sooon aites lovelies .

ps . Still not in good terms with you ,won't &never will . HAHA ! xD

xoxo .

2010-02-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hell yeah this is how my face looks like right now . Masam ,tkde nk senyum . (Exception for the hair eyys . lols .) Problems ,problems PROBLEMS keep coming my way and yesterday was just too much . Every little thing i do is sucha pain in ur ass right ? Do you think it feels good being critised most of the time and being kicked in the face by you ,and especially you . Hell no . But ,im used to it . Don't blame me for wat i become . Look at me now . I bet you probably sick of me now ,ain't ya ? Haha !

xoxo .

2010-02-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

Take pictures most of the time in class ,cause we freaking have nothing to do . Thought of going to school early just now ,but end up waking up 1 hour late and of course ,arriving to school later . Start school at 10am pon bole lmbat . Nyeetttt . Went to expo during lunch cos dian diedie wanna go to the toilet over dere =.= Eat prata over dere and it was darn expensive . $2.50 for one pathetic piece of prata !! Wtheckk ! & im not kenyang mind you ,nobody would . Never gonna eat dere again. But now im craving for cheese prata . Anyone ? (:

Xoxo .

2010-02-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

I loooooove green teaaaaaa (:

There's alot of things happening lately ,but im not gonna elaborate all about it . If i do ,my post will be one page long . Lol . Anyway ,supposed to go out with Syabby and Nizam to play pool the other day but it was cancelled . Cause Nizam uat prangai or sumthing . Pity Syabby ,you can find better babe ,like you said to me dat time about _________ .

Alot of people ask me out on Sunday either to lepak or sumthing ,but wtheck laa ,everyday i lepak veryy sian yknow . But with Syabby taq mendak okay ?
So atlast meet Apiz at woodlands instead . Slack around near his house since most of the shop at Causeway is closed =.= Nak carik kedai makan pon susah . Meet his frends after dat and we went to East coast and stuff . Went home the next day . & Apiz ,next time den i sing for you aites . Hahah but not confirm eyy . lol .

xoxo .

To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to .

2010-02-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

Been mitting this tetek frend of mine lately . Maybe cause shes the only one who have nothing to do everyday ? lol . Jgan marah eyy Syabby . Heheheh . Gy skolah alek lah sister (:

Lately ,deres alot of ups and downs gg at school . Conflicts and misunderstanding sure have want between friends and classmates right ? Hahaha but its slowly settling down and im making things right again . & thats good ,there shud be no grudges against friends right ? Peace ! (:
xoxo .

2010-01-31T14:01:00.000+08:00

Not been updating ,i noe . Life's been hectic . Need to juggle time for friends ,school and ________ . *winks* hehehehe . & especially time for myself . I dun get much of that lately .

& to ' nyett ' ,please dun be unreasonable uhs . Thanks for hearing my probs that time , but if youre really my friend you'll understand my situation . Since you don't want to talk to me anymore,fine . Have it your way . Goodbye then .

xoxo .

2010-01-17T14:53:00.000+08:00

Saturday ,16/1/10 .

Saturday ,10/1/10 .

P.s ,i enjoyed my time with babygirls (:

xoxo .

2010-01-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

School was fine . Quite fun actually . Saw a few familiar faces .

Dian can't wait to see ur piggy boy every day right ? hahahaa ! My lips like sugar btol uh kao xD

I now ,ynow (:

xoxo .

2009-12-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

Start on next monday . & ohh yar ,did i tell you ? Dis saturday is my last day of workk ??

Yeessssaaaaaa ! :D

Anyway ,countdown plans ? Celebrate with Waty baby and ol .Long time never saw her .Misses(:

BUT ,i have to work on new year's eve . Wtheck . & i can't ask for an off day cos on dat day ,everyone has to work . I mean everyone . So luckily me and Ayu was able to change shift and so after work i get to mit those babes and dudes . Haha ! But the problem is ,im working morning shift the next day . Cb tol . But wtheck ,im still going dere .

Sentosa here i comeee ! :D

xoxo .

2009-12-27T19:19:00.000+08:00

Currently not in the mood at all . On the edge of breaking down .

Why can't you people just fcuking give in ? You people put me in the spot ,yknow . Alot .

Fcuker sia . Don't until i hate you . There will come a time when i will just walk out and leave .

Sooner or later . Don't dare me .

2009-12-23T14:39:00.000+08:00

Hey sorry for not updating again. As you noe im always busy , didn't even have the time to go out with frends . Anw ,just came back from KL .Yup dat means shopping for me . & now my money's left $4 plus ? or less . hahaa . Yeah did my hair and pamper myself over there cos i did good for my Nlevel results . & i like my hair nowww . smooth ,heheh . Anw ,didn't expect to pass ol of my subjects . Yeah ,i passed ol okay people (: & i am eligible to go sec 5 . But like hard sia ,cos i don't noe if i can make it for my o's ornot . & i tend to give up easily when im stressed . Mun advice me to go sec 5 and fam has no problem for me gg ite . Hmm , higher nitec maybe ? Wth , i've applied ready . See how my application results . Or taking private o's ? Goshh .

Btw , maybe im quitting my job next week . Can't take it anymore . Too tired ,and its not worth it . After resigning , gonna spent more time with people . & catch up on things i've missed . To syabby ,shopping with me again okay ? Hahahaa .

xoxo .

2009-12-09T01:18:00.000+08:00

Those picas were taken during my off day with Syabby . Had fun with her . Thanks for the treat btw (: Buat2 lah slalu . Hahahaaa . Accompany her shopping cos she just got her pay . She plan to buy atleast 1 clothes buy she ended up buying nothing . Wtheck .

& we booked a taxi home cos we're lazy to take the train . Nie luh orang da biase naik taxi . Huak !

&& the taxi driver jiwang eyy , btol taq syab ? Hahaa , i noe yknow (:

xoxo ,

2009-12-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

I can't remember the last time i updated dis dusty blog of mine . Seems like forever since i last updated . Busy due to work , wat else ? Just now at work i was like a zombie -.-" Not enuf sleep plus tired . Somemore i reached home around 3plus the day before . & today full shift . Walao tuh Nasa kasi keje rabak siakk . Hmmpphh ~

Well , of course i get my pay aready . & Syabb accompany me shopping on friday . Guess wat ? my money is left $30+ now . Heheh . & theres still lots to buy okay . But im definitely gonna shopping again . Haha ! Anw , tomorrow off again , plans with Syabby maybe ? Or just rest at home . See how my mood ,

xoxo .

2009-11-29T01:55:00.000+08:00

Thursday

Saturday

Just now woke up around 12 plus & the first thing on my mind is , what am i gonna do today ?

Supposed to werk today , and full shift sumore . But im just lazy & i am too tired from work the day before . Msged my manager around 3or4 plus in the morning that i won't be cuming for work . Wonders what time he read my msg huh ? Hahah okay wateva .

So Ayu cover for my shift & its the first time she did full shift . Hahah ! She called me during her break , & dis is what she told me ,

Ayu: Ehh , full ade due break eyys ? aku taq tau siol (sounding surprised )

Me: Mestilah , taqkan whole day nk satu je break kn .. So amacam keje ?

Ayu: Penat siol , ramai siak orng narie .

Hahaha tau pon ramai , tu pcl aku mls . Its almost 3am now & since its her first time full shift , i am wondering where she is now . Still re-shoping the place ? Cos around dis time on weekends, i am still at work . Hahaha .

Anw , went Lot1 & Jurong point just now . Bought a few stuffs for myself , since i just got my pay . Huhu ! But its not enuf ! I want more leii . Theres still more stuffs to buy & i NEED to save some money for emergency and stuff . I wonder how i can do dat , with my pay sooo little ?

Guess i shud hire a sugar daddy soon . Hahaha . No waayyy !

2009-11-24T14:37:00.000+08:00

Okay , i had a pretty busy and hectic week . Mostly its bcos of work . Imagine me working on friday , Saturday and Sunday straight . & dun get me started on Saturday . Customer keeps on coming in and i dun even get to rest for even a minute . & i worked from morning till 3am ? Reached home around 4 plus , and the next day im working again . Imagine how tired and shagged i am . By the time on Sun my eyes is like a zombie liao . & this week im working on Saturday again . Ayu , cover aku plspls ! ); Walao , summore chrismast is coming . Fuhh , can't imagine how im gonna handle it . Goodluck to me .

& yeah , been hearing more of complaints and critised than compliments from customers. What do you expect ? Fussy impatient people . If can i just wanna take out my penknife from my pocket and stab them upside down , side to side . Hehehe *evil laugh*

So attended crime prevention thingy at suntec yesterday with Nabilah . Supposed to attend the 4pm one but i was 1hour late cos Nabilah msged me last minute . So by the time we arrived , it was over -.-" Lina attended the earlier one cos she worked afternoon shift so left Khairul alone . Hahaha kecian =P

Met Lynette , Jufri and Anwar for the 6pm one and i finally get to eat my Cheesecake .

Weehooo ~ After dat , went dinner at Lavender with them and Lynette and Jufri damn funny siak :D Otw home , slack around wit Ahjay and Amir for awhile . Talk about work and stuff , long time never talk with them . Kecohh .

So they are currently not working anymore , taq lame lagy aku pon join skali dgan dorng uhs . Hahaha , see how lah eyy .

xoxo

2009-11-19T16:57:00.000+08:00

Okayy firstly i finally get to meet this lovely frend of mine ,wanie at lot1. Its been a long time since i last met her . Thought of accompany her to cut her hair at first , but it was raining heavily.

So we decided to go Macdonalds first as i wanna buy my frappe . But then i changed my mind as i wanna eat a proper meal as i haven't eaten yett . Eat Mcwings & fries. I swear i was full after dat . Frappe tmrw , maybe ? Hahaha.

After dat ,accompany wanie to cut her hair . Taq abes2 nk gunting rmbut sia ,aku shave kn ko botak baru tau (: Anw , bought a few stuffs at cotton on and i took a veryy loong time to make a decision til wanie go off first , as she needs to go to work . So left with Ayu , naseb ko penyabar nyer orang ehhs :D After dat , home swit home .

'Its better to have loved and lost , than never to have loved at all.

2009-11-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hey people (:

Today's my off day and im doing nothing at home. Basically just charging up my energy for work.

Too tired to go out . Im getting better at work but i have to worked on at the voucher& gift certs part .

Troublesome.

So i worked full shift again on Sunday and i bumped with Diena. She's otw home from worked too. Btw , imyt babe :D Anw , i certainly was very hungry when i reached home and i keep on refilling my plate . Finally i gets to eat mum's nasi goreng . Pedas nk mampos :D What do you expect , i only ate hot meltz for lunch at work .

Tmrw working morning shift ,with Nabilah . & i dun get to tagg along this friday to watch movies with Eera and ol cos im working on that day . Walao . Next time je uhs .

Btw , when im otw home on the train , i overheard two pathetic minahs gossiping & critisizing bout other people on the train. They critisize bout the looks and the dressing of a group of girls. They are 14 ,maybe ? & you two are like ,err 19 ?

Their words are horrible , really . Ohh please lah , nobody's perfect . You are mature &old enuf to noe that .What if other people critise you like the way you critise them ? Confirm taq suke kn ?
Wth , just leave them alone lah . Tsktsk .

2009-11-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes its confusing to know if that guy really loves you or not ,

Especially if you're hurt many times in the past.

Its hard giving chances and welcoming new people in your life ,

As you know that you still love and forever misses that special someone in your past.

It sucks having that kind of feeling and i wished i would just forget about the past ,

& finally moving on.

But i really feel fucked up when after every failed relationship ,

Knowing that you've put your time and energy in it.

& just watching it gone to waste.

What hurt the most is looking at your one true love with eyes full of hope and wishing things would go back like it used to ,

& he just play it cool and act like nothing happens in return.

I have, and still trying to move on

cause i know that eventually ,

that Mr right will come sooner or later♥

If i had a single flower for every time i think
about you, I could walk forever in my garden.

2009-11-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

Those fotos were taken on Saturday. Coincidentally it was my off day and it was a last minute plan to go sheesha. At first plan to go out with Remy but since we dunnoe were to go ,it was cancelled. Hahaha. So bought my work pants with Syab at Bugis and mit Zee&Paul after dat.

Peace.

2009-11-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating like i use to. As you all noe that im very busy with work and its hard to mit up with friends nowadays. Busy with my own stuff and ol. I apologise if i paitao you people okay ? Hahaha.

Work has been more hectic and chaotic as the festive seasons is coming. &lately customers is becoming more fucked up and unreasonable ,with their cb faces. Its really getting on my nerves.

But luckily i have alot of patience and by the end of the day, i didn't lose anything right ?

So fuck them. Hahaha. Im having two days off, so i guess im gonna rest at home to refill my energy for work. I guess ?

Should i leave my heart open, for you ?

2009-11-02T21:23:00.000+08:00

Chalet and Halloweeeennnn !

Okay this was friday and saturday photos during zee's chalet . Overnite there and went wildwildwet too ,it was great . Now im one tone darker than before . Shitt . But people say it ain't that obvious. Luckily. Plus theres a Halloween parade there and it was veryy scary . Their props and makeup was like very real . But one of the dracula is quite cute :D

Anw ,when otw home from zee's chalet ,i swear my eyes is like a zombie and one of my eye is veryy red due to lack of sleep. People in the train look at me in shock . lol .

Btw ,i've got a job already . I just started today and im already at the cashier position . &i was like blurr cock at first but luckily artikah was there to guide me . Getting the hand of it abit . Haha thanks beb ! Tmrw afternoon shift ,same as Nabilah . That means i can wake up abit late . Hehehe (:

2009-10-29T01:09:00.000+08:00

Happyy mucchhh :D

Went to United Square with Ayu and Faiz just now as he wanted to go there soo much .

After dat ,trained to Orchard and walked almost the whole town . &i swear my feet was aching and begging for a massage . Now i got blisters at my toes . Ouchhh ! Faiz promised me that he would massaged my feet . Well ,you better do it the next time you mit me ,plus you owe me ciggies and ice-cream . Haahas nyett .

2009-10-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

*look up*

Babyboy was playing with his stickers ,and end up having stickers ol over his face and body .

His soooo cuteeee ! Agree ?

Okayy ,so i was bored at home and decided to give my grandma& this two boys a visit .

When the minute i entered the house , the two boys immediately run and hugged me .

Awwwwwww !

The small one is getting naughtier by the day &keeps on bugging his brother ,til he doesn't have toys to play with . Nehmind ,i will buy for you another toys okay ? haah.

Will give grandma and the two boys another visit soonn .

Rinduuuuuu .

2009-10-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

Saturday.

Went to town and shishaa yesterday with lovelies .

Celebrated Intan's sweet sixteen bdae and Jajaa bought a Sesame street cake for her .

But end up ,im the one who ate most of it and finished it since we don't want it to go to waste ,don't we ? Hee ,yummyy .

2009-10-24T00:41:00.000+08:00

I went to interview just now . Haah again ,i noe .

After dat ,accompanyy Nico to dye her hair too . Waited for her til my ass felt soree . But her hair turns out nicee . Thumbs up to the hairstylist :D

After dat , went to bugiss to eat . Nico's treat (: & she shopped there too . Biase uh , da dpt gaji .Nyettt .

Den homee.

Anw ,just finished folding and rearranging my clothes cause it was a messed before that . & i think i need a new place for it . Too much clothes ? Ouh nonoo ,just too little spacee.

Cherish the people around you ,
cause we don't know what we've got until we've lost it .

2009-10-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

Hahaaa ! Mukee taq perluuuu !

Yeayyy ,i get to eatt Dunkin Donuttttttt ! :D

Okeh , time check . Its 1.45am now. I can't go to sleep . My eyes is still widee awakee .

Those pics were taken just now . Last min plan to watch moviee . Watched 'Fame' and it was awesomee . You guys should watch it ok ? Currently my back is aching . That means its time for Nicoo to massage it for me . Haahs ~

Anw , im sooo in loveee with Asherr Book ! *meltss* He is sooo mine♥

2009-10-21T13:58:00.000+08:00

Wassuupppp ?

Currently im just doing nothing and rotting at homieeee .
Mit my lovely cousin yesterday at JP to accompany her buy some stuffs .

At night , mit Jiarong and Ayu to take my cap back , finally ehhs (:

Slack with Ayu jap , den home.

Just woke up and i swear my body is aching . Goshh. Not enough sleep maybee ? Hahaas.

Later maybe mitting my gf Eqaa to watch movies with her , rindduuuuuuuuuu !

But my bodyy achingg , how ?

&btw , i miss Afiqtelooorrrrrr ! Haaahhs . Bile mauu jumpeee ? :D

2009-10-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday , i spent first half of the day lazing around and doing nothing . Chatted with Faizz and he want to buy ciggies and meet me after dat.

While waiting for him , i fell asleep . Nie beli ke jual rkk skali ? :D

Slack with him around my house and went home to get change cause we wanna go Nana house.

But before that , ate maggi cause this frend of mine suddenly craves for it. Nyett.

Anw , thanks Faiz for the treat (:

Reached Nana's crib & she just woke up. Masai , Hahaas !

Went to Lot to buy sumthing and around 11 , home swit home .

P.s , i miss someone. That special someone. Where are you now ? I wonder.

2009-10-18T18:26:00.000+08:00

Mummy♥

Hellooo earthlings ,

I've been gg out almost everyday cause i can't stick my butt at home for even one day :D

Went to wedding with mum and daddy just now. I was forced to follow.

Like Nico says to me just now ,

" Kao nyer orang pegy jemputan ? *laughs* "

Wateva ~

House was empty before we go out.

Cause basically all of my sibs went out with their own partners. Reuben came to give mum a visit. Like finally (:

Anw , since there is no one at home and to prevent myself of dying from boredom ,

might as well i follow my parents. Its been a long time since i went out with them .

Daddyy went off after eating .

Mum hang around with her friends.

& i had a puff and went home , alone .

I am craving for caramel-frappee , anyoneee ?

2009-10-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

First and foremost ,

I would like to take this time to wish my daddy a Happy birthday.

Even though i haven't been listening to you all this while ,

i will try to be good and maybe filial daughter for you (:

You taught me right from wrong ,

Even though we couldn't get along most of the time

& i would throw tantrums at you ,

I hope you know how much you're loved and appreciated

I hope you , instinctively, knew it all along ,

Cause you're the bestest dad i ever had

& no one can ever replace you.

Happy Birthday, Daddy♥

2009-10-16T10:19:00.000+08:00

Went to town yesterday. To apply job.

What shop ? Cannot tell. Heehx :P

& yeah , i hope i get the job.

Alot of people offer me all kinds of job. I'll think about it.

Meet them around 2 plus but before that Nana and Ayu went interview at Vivo.

Pity them cause their interview is at 12. They must go there early in the morning. Haahs !

After dat , went Marina, bought ciggies and slack around.

8 plus gerak from there and slack again around Nana's blk.

Then home.

Not much to elaborate bout yesterday.

Byeeeeeeee ! (:

2009-10-13T11:02:00.000+08:00

Nlevels is like, finally oveeerrr !

Goshh, like finally. Goodbyee stupidd school. Haah !

Last paper is POA, and paper 1 was fcuking hard.

I laughed when i flipped open the paper. Cause i didn't noe a thing.

But after a long reconcilation, i remembered a bit of how to do it.

Paper 2 was muchmuch better. I noe how to do most of the questions.

Luckily~

Pity ayu cause she studied day&night but not a single thing she studied come out.

But atleast she made an effort to study (:

& btw, ystrday i just get my hair highlighted.

& yeah, my hair is colourful now :D

But i think i wanna highlight again. Haah !

I'll think about it.

2009-10-11T19:04:00.000+08:00

This is Anggun. Chubby right ? Cuteeeee.

At Ayu's house.

Went to Eerah's open house yesterday with Ayu and Wanie.

Mit them at 3 plus and took Lrt there.

Brought my hungry stomach there & i swear i ate alot yesterday.

I kept refilling my plate and Eerah just laugh at me. Ayu showed her shocked face.

Well, hungryy mahh :D

After dat, Faiz arrive and they are watching 'Bohsia'.

Goshh, i dunnoe how many times i watched that boring show. The ending was pathetic.

Anw, went to Nana house to visit for raya. & ate again cause im still hungry dat time. Hee.

Karaoked for a while and i sang this one song anyhow. I go and sing the tune of another song.

The song goes like 'Dinginn malammm ....' Haa !

They laughed at me like crazy.

Wahh, paiseyy siolx :D

Walk off from her house after magrib.

Ayu accompany me home and i get changed cause im gg her house.

Went to her house, and ate again -.-"

Waited for Nana to arrive and i sleep over her house.

Watched cds all the way and i fell asleep. But cannot sleep properly cause Nana's laughter woke me up. Damn it~

Went to 7-eleven to buy Tom yam maggi after dat cause we have to entertain Nana's cravings. Haaa !

Saw my ex's frend again. But this one is a different person. Wow, he remembers me.

But i dun remember him :D

When they eating the tom yam, i fell asleep again. Nana sort jer :P

Went home at 8am.

Have my bath and sleep again. Mummy tries to wake me up but to no avail :D

This time, i wake up at 6pm. Hee !

Woke up, help mummy with sumthing and here i am blogging.

Tomorrow im having POA paper. Last paper for N's.

Goodluck to me ^^

2009-10-09T13:19:00.000+08:00

Okay my blog is soo dead. Sorry for not updating.

Busy with couple of stuffs.

& i did my Nlevels. & it was pretty hard than i expected.

Left one paper on Monday, and dats POA.

Gotta study hard and pray i can memorised and get all the stuff that i need to remember inside me head. Nyettt~

Some of my classmates didn't take Poa paper. Its such a waste.

Today i think i will just spend my time at home, maybe :D

Currently im waiting for an interview call. Wow, it really does test my patience.

Yesterday supposed to go training at a place before i was accepted working there. But i didn't go.

A change of mind about working there.

Why ? Only syabby noes.

Diamdiam jer k ? :D

Read my email just now.

& gosh i have ALOT of unread email messages.

I think it will take me ages to read those emails. Haha.

Okay, i have deleting emails to be done (:

See ya.

2009-10-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Last day of school :D

Candid xD

To my 4Gallucci ♥

Had our fun just now.

Get ready for monday,

For Nlevels & getting scolded.

You noe what i mean ;D

2009-10-01T19:30:00.000+08:00

Aishaabby♥

Not been updating this week.

Busy preparing for the upcoming major exams.

Plus going out everyday this week without fail.

Let's see if i remember where i went ?

On Monday, mit kontot, Amir and Nana to 'study'. Haas !

After dat mit Rais to lepak and went home tipsy. Head spinning.

Nana nak lagy (:

Reach home 12 plus maybe ? Taq prasan. Haa !

Tuesday, woke up. Went to school. Sleepy siot.

Went interview after school.

Thought of not gg cause im lazy and hangover and stuffs,

But i ended up gg anyway.

Wednesday went to jalan raye with classmates.

& today went Ayu house to watch 'Gegebo'. Okayy lah crite tuh.

Then, home.

Just now i heard that one of my schoolmate has just passed away.

& he's only 15.

Gosshh, i still dun believe it, even though i do not noe him dat much.

& it made me realise that death could happen anytime in our life.

Whether you're 15 or 50.

You'll never noe when's ours be.

Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dariNya.

Amin.

Pleasee, don't let out your anger and problems on me.

Sick and tired of this, seriously.

2009-10-01T19:08:00.000+08:00

Raya outing with classmates :D

Coincidentally Ahjay wear the same colour. Lolx -.-"

Nana ade tandokk ! Huak ~

Sungguh taq perlu. Haas !

Had fun with them.

There's more photos.

& thanks crownie for the photos (:

2009-10-01T19:02:00.000+08:00

Zee's open house (: